Stay at home mom again!

After 8:30 tomorrow morning, I will officially be a S.A.H.M again! I am going in to Genco in the morning to pick up my stuff and tell them I am quitting. I am excited but scared at the same time. My mind is going in circles! Thats why I am still up tonight. I am so scared of making the wrong decision. We could still use the extra income, but I miss my family SO much! I have had problems with my lead at work and she has pretty much made me hate being there 90% of the time. She is one of those people who won't listen for anything, she gets defensive as soon as you start to speak! I can't keep working with someone who constantly gets me so frustrated it takes all I have to hold the tears back! Which today, all I had was not enough.

I always knew somehow I got lucky enough to get the best husband I could ever have even imagined getting. He has been at a job he can not stand for 3 1/2 years now, but yet is willing to stay there longer because he doesn't want me coming home unhappy! He said he would rather have me stay at home happy and stay at his job, then see me miserable because of some lady that thinks she knows everything and wants to treat me like a child.

The girls were so excited tonight when I told them I wasn't going to work anymore. They were even more excited when I told them I would be taking them to school and picking them up, so they wont have to ride the bus anymore.

Why is life so full of decisions!? Yes, I know thats part of it, but why does it have to be so scary? I am so scared right now that me not working will really hurt us and put us back in a bad situation, but at the same time I am so very hopeful that everything will be ok. We plan to take our income tax and pay off everything possible except the van, and pay ahead on anything we can. From what I figured it looks like we will be alright, but again, I am so scared something will bite us in the butt and screw us up!

Yes, I am rambling. It is late, I am tired, but my brain will NOT shut off! lol OK, how about a quick kid update?

Jade- umm.....My little girl is growing up! She no longer has the little kid face, she has that "a few more years and I am going to be a teenager" face! How did that happen!!!??? I went to pick her up the other day and I could have sworn I lost all my muscles! She was to big for me to pick up!

Starla- She is going through the stage where everything hurts her feelings and everything makes her feel not wanted. My poor baby! We are definitely going to work on that! How do you make a 7 year old realize you couldn't imagine your life without them? I think it is mainly, Jade is maturing and not wanting her baby sister on her heels and Starla takes it as Jade not wanting her around.

Piper- She is just as wild as ever! This we definitely have to work on! We have all spoiled her rotton and now we are paying for it! She thinks she should get what she wants when she wants it! For anyone who didn't know, she turned 3 December 23rd. I can't believe she is 3 already!

Anakin- He turned 10 months old yesterday! He is literally walking EVERYWHERE! Trying to run! He barely crawls at all anymore! But yet still has NO teeth! I am just amazed by this! You can see one trying to come in, but it has been that way for the last 3 weeks! He is an adventurer, he will not stay out of ANYTHING! We have to keep the baby gate up to block the steps, cause he will fly up them!

Anyway, I think thats enough rambling, I really need to try to get some sleep. Goodnight!