More bad luck

I was not going to put this on here, but everyone will know sooner or later so I guess it doesn't really matter. I am being evicted from my apartment, I finally reached the manager and she said if I can get out as soon as possible they wont send it to a lawyer, so I wont have an actually eviction on my rental history. I do not have the money to get another place right now so I have no choice but to put my stuff in storage, let the kids live with Stephen for the summer, and ill find a room to rent. The idea of not having the kids with me at all is killing me. I started moving stuff Friday, Justin and Tanya came to help me, and of course about the time we got both trucks loaded it started down pouring! My stuff got soaked along with the 3 of us! It was kinda funny though, except that the back of my bookcase that I just got a couple of months ago is messed up from the rain. I went back to the storage today to actually stack the stuff and make sure nothing was completely ruined from the rain. I have alot more to smoosh in there! I had to get a 10x10 since that was the biggest they had available, so I'm hoping it will all fit. Justin is coming Tuesday to help me move more, if it don't rain Monday though I'm probably going to do what I can with my car. I will probably stay here another 2 weeks, then I think I am going to be renting a room from a friend of mine up here, that way I am close to the kids. 

I am trying to figure out what I need to do to get my life back on track, but it is so hard because I cant concentrate, I cant keep my mind on one thing for very long. I feel like I am at my breaking point, I pray everyday that it does not get any worse. After everything that has happened the last year I thought I was finally moving on and going to be OK, but for some reason everything keeps falling apart on me. Why is this? What have I done in my life to deserve the hell that I keep being put through? I can not figure this out. I try so hard to keep my head up and believe things will get better yet it keeps biting me in the ass!