Homeless

Things have once again turned upside down on me. Anakin had the flu last week so i missed a couple days of work, i called them tuesday to let them know id be back wednesday, the lady from the temp service called me back tuesday afternoon and said famous footware is shutting down next week, they dont want me to come back until the 5th. Well this REALLY screwed up my plans becuase i was suposed to move in to the apartment in murfreesboro this weekend, but the rent is weekly and going two weeks with no paycheck meant no way to pay the rent. So Stephen said during the week he would go stay at his parents and the kids and i could stay in his place until i get a paycheck. Which is not the perfect solution but the only option. I am going to do spring cleaning of sorts for him to pay my way for being there.
I realized last nite, i am actually homeless. I was laying on moms bed exhausted from moving all my stuff into storage, wishing i could just go home, shower, get into clean dry warm clothes(as i had spent most of the day soakedfrom rain) and sit down and relax with a book or something. Thats when it hit me, i have no home to go to. It is a very hard emmotional hit to take and very depressing. At that moment, i wanted nothing more then to just give up and fall of the face of the earth. I just want to cry, for the next 3 weeks I am homeless, i know it could be worse, i could have nowhere to go and actually be on the street, but i am blessed enough to have an ex-husband that doesnt hate me and still cares enoughto help make sure not only the kids are ok but that I too am ok. I am very thankful for that.