i was going to go to aunt shells sat night but didnt have the extra gas, so i went to shannons and played bunco. Sunday we met jeannie and evan at the park then went to her house for dinner. On the way home the girls asked me why dont we move back there. I told them i would think about it and talk to thier dad. I have thought about it alot since stephen and i split, but i didnt think i could take the kids that far from him but right now we are 40 minutes from him and even when we were closer he never dropped by to see them, he gets them by schedule only. I have realized i need to base decsions by what is best for me and my kids not on if it will hurt somones feelings especially since they dont care about mine anymore.
i was happy to move out here because it meant a house for me, stephen and our family but now i dont have stephen or the house, he and his girl friend are living in the house i picked, that i busted my butt on to make a home. That he didnt even want i had to talk him into getting it(yes, obviously there is some resentment about the house) and no reason to stay here.
i am not rushing a decision, i have done that to often in my life. i need to get on my feet and make sure i could afford to live there before i decide to move back.
stephen- if you read this, none of it was meant to make you mad. im just being honest about how i feel.
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