I have been cleaning all day, I have even mopped. I called the temp services again and looked at career builder. I want to go out and look but unless I know of something that is at least a good chance I don't want to waste my gas. With gas so high who would want to waste it? I still have a load or 2 of laundry to do and to get the kids stuff ready for Stephens tonight. I am trying to find something to do tonight. I want to get out and go somewhere other then moms, which don't get me wrong I like going over there and playing cards with her and whichever sibling happens to be there but I need to do something with someone that's not my parents or siblings. I might see if Stephen is OK with me taking just enough out of what he is giving me this week to take the kids to the drive in Saturday night. I don't know though, I want to do something special with the kids Saturday night but I don't want to waste money right now. I think I would feel a little guilty about spending money he gives me on taking the kids out. Yup, I would so OK that idea is out the window, guess I don't need to ask him! lol Anyway, I am just bored and anxious today. I NEED and WANT a job! I don't like being home all day feeling worthless! Its not the kids, I love being here with them as always, but right now it does not feel the same as it did when I was a stay at home mom, right now I just feel like I am failing my kids. Is it obvious I need to get out of this house?