Thank you Christy for your comment. It means a lot to me to know other people believe in me that much, and think so much of me.

I kind of feel like I am in an endless circle that gets smaller every time I go around. On one side of the circle everything is fine, I am handling everything great and I am just waiting patiently to find out if my marriage is going to work out or end. On the other side of the circle is where I fall apart, its where I don't know how to handle what I am going through and I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I hate this side of the circle, I hate when I break down and feel so bad. I want to be on the good side of the circle all the time, I want to be happy and enjoy my life, not dread going to bed every night and dread waking up the next morning.

I know going through this is necessary, and I would rather go through this then just give up on my marriage all together. In the end I will either be happy that we made it work, or I will be happy that we did our best and were just not meant to be together.

On a completely different note, Stephen picked the kids up from moms today so I could work longer. I got home to him spraying the hose up into the tree. When I asked what he was doing, he said he was trying to get the snake to fall out! Yup, that 2 snakes in less then a week! YUCK!

Jade now knows there is no tooth fairy. She went into my room this morning looking for something and found the last tooth she lost sitting on my shelf, I forgot to put it up. So I took out the little box full of all their teeth and I showed them to her and explained that mommy and daddy are the tooth fairy. She took it pretty well, she cried a bit, but not much. I was expecting her to question Santa Clause and the Easter Bunny, but she didn't. I don't think it will take her to long to figure it out though, she is very smart. She giggled when I told her that was the reason it took so long for the tooth fairy to get her last tooth, because I kept forgetting!